Wrap Up From The Weekend

The Louisville Fire game was great!!! :) We won our first game. Woo Hoo!

I had a very nice date last night!

As of this morning....

I HAVE AN OVERWEIGHT BMI!!!!!

191 pounds!!!!

Almost To...

an overweight BMI!!! I am two pounds away from this goal! I will have gone from Super Super Morbidly Obese to Overweight. What an amazing accomplishment!!!

Another thing...
Last night my dad and I had dinner with my sister. I am really starting to notice that I am catching up to her size wise. I honestly think we could wear most of the same tops. I am still a bit bigger than her on the bottom, but the gap is certainly closing. This was one of my goals as a pre-op. I wanted to be the same size as my sister. It just seems so bizarre that it is actually happening.

Some New Great Products I Discovered.....

Orville Redenbacher's Nautural "Buttery Garlic" Popcorn (21 carbs/4 grams of dietary fiber)
(Bags are mini sized)

Orville Redenbacher's Natural "Buttery Salt and Cracked Pepper" (24 carbs/ 5 grams of dietary fiber) (Bags are mini sized)

Bringing back childhood memories....
"SUGAR FREE TANG" (WOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOO)

Thinking about Goal....

I am 18 pounds from my PCP's goal for me (175).

I am 43 pounds from my personal weight loss goal (150).
(Anything below 150 is just going to be bonus!)


I have never in my life come so close to being my ideal weight.

Game Day - Season Opener!!!!

WOOOO HOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so excited!!!! :) Tonight's game should be awesome. I have great season tickets.

Making Some Choices...

I am really thinking a lot about traveling over Thanksgiving and Christmas break. I would actually miss Thanksgiving (because of how the school holiday falls), but I would leave after Christmas (since we get a longer break after Christmas). I have one friend in mind that might be able to go with me on a trip, but I am looking at the possibility of going alone as well. One place I certainly want to go is London. I've always wanted to travel there. The other place is still to be determined (but will certainly be international). I am going to start researching after I get back from Toronto, because the plane tickets will be the most expensive thing, and I don't want to wait until last minute to get that.

I know that if I choose these trips, I will be putting a hold on plastics. Yes, I still want them, but I also am thrilled about doing things that I simply could not do physically before the DS. I have lived a lot of my life on the sidelines, and I am done doing that.

For so many years, I have put others first. I don't necessarily regret that at all. I just think that it is ok that I am being a little bit selfish at this point in my life. I am uncovering a whole new me, and I like who I am discovering! :)

Interesting Blurb...Which Would You Choose?

Yesterday morning I heard an interesting blurb on the radio.

They surveyed a group of men and women. The choice was to either step on the scale in front of a room full of co-workers, or to reveal your salary to that same room full of co-workers. 71% of the men said they would step on the scale, while only 42% of the women said they would.

In thinking about this a little more deeply, it really touches on how women are held to such a higher standard weight/looks wise. While guys may throw out the occasional "you should hit the gym" chuckle to one another, it is much less an issue with them. Even my thinnest friends do not share their weight!

I guess I am thankful that my salary is public record, so the choice would be easy for me! :)

DOUBLE CENTURY CLUB!!!

I weighed in at 193 today! I have lost 200.6 pounds!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Said on OH Today

A girl was reflecting on her surgery anniversary and she said something that really struck me:

"Going into this; I wanted a fresh start. A place to begin where I wasn't trapped by choices and genetics that weren't of my own choosing."

I think there is a lot of truth in this statement. I wanted a fresh start as well. I think I would edit my statement to add not being trapped by PAST choices that I had made. While there were some choices my parents could have made to help me some, overall I have to take responsibility. I have been out of their care for many many years now.

Gee Thanks Dad!

Two nights ago I had expressed to dad my frustrations about the dating world. Both conversations ended with me crying, and my poor dad perplexed. Last night my dad tries to comfort me, and fails miserably. At least I didn't cry this time, I waited until I got off the phone to do so.

His "pep" talk to me about dating goes something like this:
"Tiffany, since you have lost so much weight you have a lot more to offer in the dating market now. You don't typically see a 120 pound girl with a man who is 280. She is usually with a man who weighs 190 or so. (I am thinking to myself at this point I can hang it up, because I'll never see 120!) Now that you have lost a lot of weight, you are going to have more dating options." (He continues on BLAH, BLAH, BLAH.)

I am ticked off when I get off the phone with him. Yes, I know what he is saying is true, but still he is my DAD, he doesn't have to tell me these things. He is right, "almost" all my fat friends are single. The ones who are not were married younger, and became fat during marriage. There are a few that are fat and are with someone else who is fat. I'm not presenting you with some scientific study, I am just telling you about the many personal examples in my life.

I guess my thinking falls to this now....what is the magic number on the scale? I know it takes all sorts of men to make the world go round, but when do they stop seeing you as an ugly monster, and start seeing you as girl they would like to be seen with in public?