Inches I Have Lost

For the month of October I have lost...

19 inches!!!

That makes for a grand total of 39 inches, over the past two months.

Photos

I know I have been taking a lot of photos of myself lately. I am just fascinated with how my body is changing. I am also thinking long term, and wanting to see how I have changed throughout the journey.

I love the fact that I can pull my legs up to my chest. My thighs are still huge, but it is nice that I can do this. It just really makes me feel so much smaller. :)

Dracula

We had a great time at Dracula last night! :) We did the "Late Seat" tickets, hoping we would get to see the performance. We had great seats. The actors were amazing. I fit into the seat just fine, and it was not squeezing my thighs together. Instead of thinking about the pain that being squished into a seat was causing my body, I could just relax and watch the show.

In order to get to our seats, we had to pass 6 or 7 people. I didn't feel uncomfortable. Before, I would worry because I felt like I was shoving my body on top of them as I passed through. It is nice knowing that is not the case now.

I had my first Post-DS Starbucks coffee yesterday. There is a chill to the air, and it tasted so yummy. It was a sugar free flavored drink. For their hardcore customers they will now be offering...

I almost forgot...

My PCP called....

My labs are PERFECT!!!

WOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

Dracula

My friend Michelle and I are going to try to see Dracula tonight at Actors Theater. We are going to wait and see if we can get last minute seats. *crossing my fingers*

Shaking My Head

I am ordering some Oh Yeah Protein Wafers online. I learned about "Oh Yeah" products from Melting Mama's blog. I love the Oh Yeah bars, so I thought I would try the wafers. I figured up what they cost individually. I found myself shaking my head. When I was 393 pounds did I ever stop to think about how much those 2 king size packages of candy were costing? Heck no, I just threw them up on the counter, and started munching as soon as I had left the store.

Somewhere in my head, was I trying to see if they were "worth" the cost? This is about my health. I need protein, and sometimes I will need protein bars for when I cannot access other food choices. It just makes me mad that I was trying to justify the cost.

I am excited about taking my measurements on Thursday. I am doing them on the first of every month. I started this at the beginning of September. I wish I had done this all along. Of course I would have needed one heck of a measuring tape to have done my pre-op measurements. (Man, I can only imagine how scary they actually were!)

Back on the Wagon

I am back on the low-carb, high-protein wagon! It really feels good to be back into a routine. I know I was only off for two days, but once you get used to a certain type of diet, your body starts to like it. (I guess pre-op my body loved the high-calorie/fat/carb diet I fed it!)

I am going to keep you guys updated on my weight loss, but I am going to "try" to not weigh as much. I am seven months post op, and I've blogged about trusting my surgery and the decisions that I make, but I still have a hard time with this. I really think I need to step away from the scale for a bit. I'd like to work towards only weighing myself once a week. I am just going to take baby steps right now.

My vacation is coming up soon! Woooo Hoooo!!! 18 more days!

From Post Secret This Week

I really liked this card from Post Secret! Good for you! We ALL deserve a better story than that!

Song Lyrics...

I like this song by Gary Allan a lot. What makes it have a deeper meaning is the personal struggles that he has went through. He was on Oprah one day, talking about his wife committing suicide, and more.

Life aint always beautiful

Sometimes it's just plain hard

Life can knock you down,

it can break your heart

Life aint always beautiful

You think you're on your way

And it's just a dead end road at the end of the day

But the struggles make you stronger

And the changes make you wise

And happiness has its own way of takin it's sweet time

No, life aint always beautiful

Tears will fall sometimes

Life aint always beautiful

But it's a beautiful ride

Life aint always beautiful

Some days I miss your smile

I get tired of walkin all these lonely miles

And I wish for just one minute

I could see your pretty face

Guess I can dream,

but life don’t work that way

But the struggles make me stronger

And the changes make me wise

And happiness has its own way of takin it's sweet time

No, life aint always beautiful

But i know i'll be fine

Hey, life aint always beautiful

But it's a beautiful ride

What a beautiful ride

Falling Off the Wagon...

I have had carbs, carbs, and more carbs the last two days. I really have fallen off the wagon. In my mind I want to justify it, but that is wrong. I keep thinking things like, "this is way less carbs than I would have had as a pre-op," etc. Bottom line, things such as this are EXCUSES. I'm getting back on the wagon...NOW. I will be a weight loss surgery success story.