What happens if you drink a can of Coke for a year? (I was a HUGE Coca-Cola addict pre-WLS.)
You will take in 32,850 calories and 40 CUPS of sugar.
Drink a Coca-Cola a day for a decade?
That will equal 94 pounds of calories from Coca-Cola, and 400 CUPS of sugar.
I'm really glad I quit Coca-Cola. Liquid calories bite.
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
So Long Insecurity: Chapter Three
"No person on earth can love you perfectly enough to mend a tear in the crimson fabric of your soul."
"Be careful who you covet. Be careful how you judge. Be slow to size somebody up and think you know all about her type. She's no different from you. Nobody's unbreakable here on this planet. Only the dead don't bleed when they're cut. We all fear that we aren't who we are pretending to be. The more careful we are about what we're projecting, the more driven we tend to be by fear." (I have certainly fallen victim to this.)
"Don't ask if that's okay with them. Here's the real question: is that okay with you? You and I are going to have to come to a place where we stop handing people the kind of power only God should wield over us."
"Most of us have what I'll call a prominent false positive: one thing that we think would make us more secure in all things. You want to know how you can pinpoint your own prominent false positive? The thing you tend to associate most with security." (Hello.....the scale....body image.)
"Acquiring your prominent false positive is like putting a finger in the crack of a bulging dam. You can tr to stop up a leak in one place, but the pressure's going to build up in another, and one day that levee's going to burst."
"Any of those things might soothe the savage beast for a while, but it will inevitably wake back up, and the hope deferred will make it angrier than ever. No one solitary thing on this entire planet has the power to secure everything else."
"Although we may have something unhealthy deep inside of us, those in whom Christ dwells also have something deeper. Something whole. Something so infinitely healthy that if it would but invade the rest of us, we would be healed."
Our Challenge...
"To let the healthy, utterly whole, and completely secure part of us increasingly overtake our earthen vessels until it drives our every emotion, reaction, and relationship. When we allow God's truth to eclipse every false positive and let our eyes spring open to the treasure we have, there in His glorious reflection we'll also see the treasure we are. And the beauty of the Lord our God will be upon us (Psalm 90:17 NKJV)"
"Be careful who you covet. Be careful how you judge. Be slow to size somebody up and think you know all about her type. She's no different from you. Nobody's unbreakable here on this planet. Only the dead don't bleed when they're cut. We all fear that we aren't who we are pretending to be. The more careful we are about what we're projecting, the more driven we tend to be by fear." (I have certainly fallen victim to this.)
"Don't ask if that's okay with them. Here's the real question: is that okay with you? You and I are going to have to come to a place where we stop handing people the kind of power only God should wield over us."
"Most of us have what I'll call a prominent false positive: one thing that we think would make us more secure in all things. You want to know how you can pinpoint your own prominent false positive? The thing you tend to associate most with security." (Hello.....the scale....body image.)
"Acquiring your prominent false positive is like putting a finger in the crack of a bulging dam. You can tr to stop up a leak in one place, but the pressure's going to build up in another, and one day that levee's going to burst."
"Any of those things might soothe the savage beast for a while, but it will inevitably wake back up, and the hope deferred will make it angrier than ever. No one solitary thing on this entire planet has the power to secure everything else."
"Although we may have something unhealthy deep inside of us, those in whom Christ dwells also have something deeper. Something whole. Something so infinitely healthy that if it would but invade the rest of us, we would be healed."
Our Challenge...
"To let the healthy, utterly whole, and completely secure part of us increasingly overtake our earthen vessels until it drives our every emotion, reaction, and relationship. When we allow God's truth to eclipse every false positive and let our eyes spring open to the treasure we have, there in His glorious reflection we'll also see the treasure we are. And the beauty of the Lord our God will be upon us (Psalm 90:17 NKJV)"
Quote from one of my students....
I had mentioned last week that I was making an effort to stop dressing like a vagabond. I'd gotten lazy in January, and the clothing was reflecting that. This will make an entire week I've only worn skirts. I have nice clothes, I was just being lazy.
Haley says to me, "Mrs. F, what is the deal with all the skirts?"
Kids crack me up.
Haley says to me, "Mrs. F, what is the deal with all the skirts?"
Kids crack me up.
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Product Endorsement
I have been going back to basics on my eating. I've gotten a little bit too carb happy, so I am going back old school to what really works well for my body. I've been heavy on the tuna salad lately. While I make an awesome BBQ tuna salad, I have to have some carbs to eat this stuff twice a day. Enter Triscuits. Forget about the cardboard Triscuits you had in your youth, these are not your mama's Triscuits. They pack quite a flavorful punch, and make just about anything you eat more palatable.
Try some today. Your taste buds will thank you.
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Baby Shower Fun
My niece Mallory.
My cousins are going to get their daughter from China on February 25th. They have tried to have a child on their own since 1997. I am so happy for them, and know they will make wonderful parents!
HH and I together. He is writing a letter to Kate for her second birthday. Every guest wrote a letter for her to open on a different birthday. That was a cool shower idea....I had HH write our letter because he is much better with words than I am.
On an unrelated note, I have really enjoyed watching the Winter Olympics with HH. We have watched quite a bit. What I've not enjoyed this evening has been filling out the super long evaluation form for my student teacher. I am 2/3's the way done with it, and only have one more to do, along with his letter of recommendation before the end of the week.
Ok....I know that you have been wondering where are the new recipes I have been making? Well, I know I am taking a ton of cooking classes, but when you throw GED classes into the mix (will have them on Monday and Wednesday in March), and on the weekends I want to go out for some meals.....that equals not much innovation going on in the home front kitchen. This will change when the school year winds down, I promise. I am learning lots of cool things that I want to flaunt! HH has been very patient, but I know he wants some good meals too. (I promise they will come soon honey!)
Saturday, February 20, 2010
So Long Insecurity: Quotes from the First Two Chapters
I've just starting digging into this book by Beth Moore, and I'm going to give some quotes that have resonated with me. A few may not make sense since I will be giving them in a short context, not a full quote.
"Somethings wrong with us for us to value ourselves so little."
"Men are not our problem; it's what we are trying to get from them that messes us up. We use guys like mirrors to see if we're valuable."
"Setbacks, on the other hand, just make us feel weak and stupid: I should have conquered this by now. I happened on a question not long ago that oerfectly expresses this mentality: How many times must I prove myself an idiot?"
"The question is whether or not our insecurities are substantial enough to hurt, limit, or even distract us from profound effectiveness or fulfillment of purpose." (Body image does this for me.)
One specialist's definition of insecurity:
"Insecurity refers to a profoud sense of self-doubt--a deep feeling of uncertainty about our basic worth and our place in the world. Insecurity is associated with chronic self-consciousness, along with a chronic lack of confidence in ourselves and anxiety about our relationships. The insecure man or woman lives in constant fear of rejection and a deep uncertainty about whether his or her own feelings and desires are legitimate." (Words in italics are things that I underlined that really hit home with me.)
"Insecurity's best cover is perfectionism. That's where it becomes an art form."
"Insecurity is miserable. That's the bottom line. We don't need it. We don't want it. And we really can live without it. So what would happen if we quite being accomplices in our own misery?"
"Somethings wrong with us for us to value ourselves so little."
"Men are not our problem; it's what we are trying to get from them that messes us up. We use guys like mirrors to see if we're valuable."
"Setbacks, on the other hand, just make us feel weak and stupid: I should have conquered this by now. I happened on a question not long ago that oerfectly expresses this mentality: How many times must I prove myself an idiot?"
"The question is whether or not our insecurities are substantial enough to hurt, limit, or even distract us from profound effectiveness or fulfillment of purpose." (Body image does this for me.)
One specialist's definition of insecurity:
"Insecurity refers to a profoud sense of self-doubt--a deep feeling of uncertainty about our basic worth and our place in the world. Insecurity is associated with chronic self-consciousness, along with a chronic lack of confidence in ourselves and anxiety about our relationships. The insecure man or woman lives in constant fear of rejection and a deep uncertainty about whether his or her own feelings and desires are legitimate." (Words in italics are things that I underlined that really hit home with me.)
"Insecurity's best cover is perfectionism. That's where it becomes an art form."
"Insecurity is miserable. That's the bottom line. We don't need it. We don't want it. And we really can live without it. So what would happen if we quite being accomplices in our own misery?"
HH is HOME!!!
HH is posing with a singing fish that we saw at Walgreens. We went to dinner at Red Robin and watched my students play basketball. We lost, but it is not our last game....three more to go!
At dinner, I once again proved just how difficult it is for me to keep a secret. I had told Ben that I had a reading meeting in Cincinnati in April on a work night. I asked him to take me to the meeting, because I would be tired. Of course, HH readily agreed. About twenty minutes later, I tell him that I found tickets for us to see Craig Ferguson perform comedy live. I am so nerdy!
This brownie pan is significant. This is the first time in my memory that I let a dessert go bad. I seriously "forgot" about it....and thus didn't feel the need to clear the pan. This is a victory for me.
HH and I watched a documentary on the Style Network called, "Too Fat at Fifteen," about a British teen who weighed 465 pounds before enrolling in the residential Wellspring Academy based out of North Carolina. She spent nine months there, and lost 202 pounds. I applaud the courage it took to be in such an intensive program, and dealing with issues head on.
On Friday I got into another disagreement with the counselor. I try to be very vague about work here, but I want to share some. The counselor and I do have a history. I know she thinks I intentionally seek out situations to assert my opinion, and be more difficult than necessary....but in the cases that I've chosen to battle with her on, I truly feel that I am in the right. The counselor sends me an email for an IEP meeting that she scheduled without checking my schedule. I have to meet with my student teacher's university supervisor to determine his grade for the first eight weeks of his student teaching. I cannot meet on the date/time she wanted. I write back and tell her it will need to be rescheduled. She writes back to see if someone else on my team could come to the meeting in my place. I go to another lady who is in an administrative position in our building (knows the laws, regulations, etc.) to explain my thinking and to make sure I was in the right. (We teachers forget that WE have rights too when it comes to our students with IEPs.) As I was telling her the situation, the counselor walks by. It looked like I was badmouthing her, but I was just telling the facts, making sure that I had the right to raise a fuss about this. I don't want some other teacher sitting in on a meeting that is important to me. I need to be there. I stood my ground, and said I wanted the meeting rescheduled.
Friday, February 19, 2010
Show Us Your Life: Your Ministry
Over at Kelly's Korner Blog, today is about showing your ministry. I think losing weight and offering hope to others who are in the process is my ministry.
I have been overweight since the third grade. In middle school I was already well into the two hundred pound range. By my junior year of high school, I tipped the scales at 317 pounds. By the time I was twenty seven, I hit my all time high weight of 393.6 pounds. To say that I was at an emotional low when I reached this weight was an understatement. I prayed about it, and decided the best option for me was to have weight loss surgery.
I started this blog as a way to process my feelings as I lost the weight. There is no easy fix to losing weight, and the emotional battle is still the hardest battle that one has to endure in this whole process. I know the ridicule and humiliation that people have been through in this area of their life, and just how bad it feels to be kicked when you are already down.
Ask me questions, I'm pretty much an open book on this subject. You won't find judgement here, just love, and a person who is willing to shed some tears with you.
Thursday, February 18, 2010
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